Yesterday was weigh-in day. I’ve lost 3 more lbs. Maintaining that forward progression. I am slightly ahead of my weight loss “schedule” and I feel great!
Aside from the scale changes, I’ve noticed some changes in my behavior, as well. I am an extremely introverted person, mainly because of my weight. When I’m out in public, I try to just blend in, to not draw any attention to myself. I keep my head down and try to avoid any interaction, but I’ve noticed that I’ve started walking with my head up, and smiling at strangers. This is big. I’ve also noticed changes in my metabolism, I used to have to take a nap as soon as I got home from work each day…I haven’t taken a nap in over two weeks!! I’ve noticed changes in some clothing, as well. I have a tank top that was always a little snug, but it fits perfectly now and I have a pair of boots that were too tight (yes, your feet lose weight too) and I wore them all day yesterday! All of these “victories” are just fuel to my fire. The sky is the limit. I know I can do this.
So, why am I doing this? I said in my first post that an Alaskan Cruise was my reasoning, and that is true, however, there are many reasons why I’ve begun this journey. Of course, the usual health reasons, but I’ve put together a more specific list. A weight loss bucket list, if you will of things I want to do and haven’t been able to because of my weight:
Thru-hike the Appalachian Trail.
Hike the Inca Trail to Machu Picchu
I want to kayak – I guess this is something I could do now, but I don’t have the confidence.
I want to walk into any store and not have to see what size they go up to. Just know that I can find something to fit. This may be a little vain, but I’m just being honest.
Roller Coasters – I love them, but I don’t ride them out of fear of not fitting in the seats.
I don’t want to have to check the weight restrictions before doing/using things.
I want to be able to raise my arms without worrying if my stomach is exposed.
Cute bra and panty sets.
I want to zipline & maybe even bungee jump.
Bathing suits – I haven’t owned an actual bathing suit since I was in elementary school.
I don’t want to worry what people are thinking. In my mind, when people look at me, (even my close friends and acquaintances) I think they just see a fat blob. Now this may be a mental thing, but if I’m not fat, then I won’t think that’s what they see.
We have these ladders where I work and they have railings on them, they’re very narrow (or so they seem to me), I want to be able to climb them without turning sideways.
I want to join crossfit. This, again, is something I could already do, but I’m just not ready yet, mentally.
I’m sure there are many, many more reasons, but these are the ones that are motivating me. These are what’s keeping my focused.
This has been my mantra. You know when you start a new job? You’re so excited and eager to begin. You show up early, go above and beyond, stay late? It’s the same for “diets” or “lifestyle changes.” The first couple of weeks, you get your workout in, drink tons of water, watch your food intake like a hawk, but…slowly you start to drift into your old habits or get that “just one won’t hurt” mentality. I decided this time around I’m gong to treat everyday like the very first day. By waking up everyday with the “start today” mindset – my enthusiasm remains.
Tomorrow marks 50 days that I’ve been on this journey. I’ve had highs and I’ve had lows. I still need to incorporate exercise into my routine and I’d like to get a little more water in each day, but I’ve managed to lose 10 pounds. That’s 40 pounds of stress off of my knees!It’s a very small step of a very long journey, but for the first time, I don’t feel like giving up. It’s doesn’t seem unattainable. I’m on track as far as my weight lost mini-goals are concerned and I’m just really excited for the future.
Here’s a couple of meals I have prepared recently. Breakfast consisted of two low sodium rice cakes, mixed berries, chia seeds, Organic vanilla Greek yogurt, mixed nuts, and PB2, I had this basically everyday for a week and I recently made a Bean, Kale and Egg Stew I found on Food Network.
I’m also learning how to shop more frugally (is that a word?) I’m splitting my shopping between Aldi & Kroger and I’ve discovered I can get more healthy items for less than when I was buying for the “bad stuff”. Below is a $65 grocery haul, which included dog food and home essentials, so basically I got all of this great food for less than 50 bucks!
One last thing that I just discovered tonight — Halo Top Ice Cream! Guys, seriously, the whole time I was eating I felt like I was cheating. This particular flavor, Chocolate Mocha Chip has 70 calories per 1/2 cup serving, but the entire pint is only 280 calories! It’s absolutely delicious! It really hits the spot when you’re having a “sweet tooth”, I’m anxious to try the other flavors, in moderation, of course.
That’s what they say, isn’t it? Every January… I read somewhere that 80% of people who join a gym in January quit within 5 months. That’s always been me…the quitter, at least when it comes to gyms, diets, weight loss, etc. Never anything else though, you put anything else in my path and I won’t stop until what I need to accomplish, is accomplished, but weight loss…it’s a whole other story. Why is that?
This is year is going to be different, I can feel it. There’s a change happening in me. A desire for something…I don’t know quite what it is, but I need to figure it out. I’ve never been one for change…I like a routine, but routine’s cause ruts and I’ve been stuck in one for far too long. So, these are the changes I’d like to see take place (some may call them Resolutions, but those are too often broken, so I’m not gonna call them that)
Health. The reason I’m here in the first place. I want my name and the word, “healthy” to pair well together. They’ve never been in the same sentence before – I want them to be. I would like to lose 100 lbs by December 31, 2017
Finances. No frivolous spending. I want to get myself in a better financial situation, with an emergency fund. If I don’t need it, don’t buy it.
Reading. I used to read all of the time, but I’ve gotten too caught up in television and put the books aside. I want to reverse that. I would like to read at least 25 books in 2017.
Hiking. I want to hike at least 15 different trails in 2017.
Recycling & Composting. I want to setup a recycling and composting area in my house.
Accountability/Consistency. I want to be made accountable for everything I do: eating, water intake, & blogging. I really want to turn this blog into something, I need to start posting more regularly and study up on how to get it out to the people.
There are many other things I would like to change, but I think these 6 are both reasonable, and attainable.
It’s been over a week since my last post, and what a week it was. I’m a supply chain coordinator, so my job is basically inventory…all inventory. Last week was our annual year-end inventory…all 5,000 items. It’s the most stressful time of the year for me…on top of the already stressful holiday season. So…what do I do when I’m stressed? Binge, apparently. My eating habits weren’t great last week. I ate my usual quinoa bowl for breakfast, and salad for lunch, but my evenings were hard. I can’t seem to get dinner figured out…I’m workin’ on it. I made it through the week though and I took off early on Friday to head to Columbus with my parents to visit my brother and sister-in-law. We went to the Columbus Zoo & Aquarium Wild Lights. It was VERY cold, but we all were in great spirits and had a wonderful time. We ate at Ted’s Montana Grill afterwards and I ordered possibly the best salmon I have ever had. It was just so good.
Saturday, December 10, 2016
My mom and I went to Ashland to finish up (or try to) our Christmas shopping. I started the day off with a spinach and egg white omelette I found on Yummy Healthy Easy and some grapes.
We had a late lunch/early dinner at Outback Steakhouse were I got the chicken quesadilla appetizer, only eating 3 pieces. Finished the day off with a beautiful sunset.
Sunday, December 11, 2016
Weigh in day. After the week I had, I was slightly worried about what the scale was going to weigh, but after thinking about it, I realized, I really didn’t care…I FEEL great! I have more energy, my knees still bother me, but I no longer need to use the wall and the railing to walk down the stairs, I’ve not had any depressing thoughts lately…all of this in just 2 weeks!!! With that being said, when I stepped on the scale and noticed a 6.2 lb decrease, I was very happy.
We had my little cousin’s 8th birthday at my house and we ended the evening by walking around Ashland’s Central Park Christmas light display.
Today was my most challenging day this far. During the day, at work, I do great, but it’s when I’m home, I just want to eat. it. all. I did my best to fight the cravings and I tried to keep my mind occupied but not before devouring half a bag of these yummy evils
Dammit. I’m not going to dwell on it but man…it sucks to fail.
Today marked the official start of my health quest and so far, so good…but don’t they always start off great? Anyway…I began the week with a cleanse that I found on Small Kitchen College just as a way to give my body a “restart”. It was much easier than any of the other cleanses I have attempted in the past, I was a little hungry by late afternoon, but dinner was very filling.
Tuesday, November 29, 2016
I spent the day shopping with my mom & cousin and I was worried that I would have problems “sticking to the plan”, but I’m pretty proud of myself…I only went over 83 calories and while I would prefer not to go over at all…it’s much better than normal. For breakfast, I made a quinoa breakfast bowl from Two Raspberries. I substituted the almond milk for a tablespoon of Organic Greek vanilla yogurt and added Organic unsweetened shredded coconut and a touch of cinnamon…it was de-licious! We had Cracker Barrel for lunch and while I really wanted Chicken ‘n dumplings and fried okra, I opted instead for a grilled chicken Caesar salad and I’m glad I did, it was so good…and filling. I did break down and have a Starbucks green tea frappucino (my weakness), but baby steps, people!! We had Chick-fil-A for dinner and I got a Cobb salad with fat free honey mustard dressing…it was good, but I should have substituted with grilled nuggets which would have cut down my calories by about 200, I’ll know next time. We ended the night with a stop at Jolly Pirate’s Donuts, a childhood staple, but I was strong and got only a small black coffee.
All in all, I like the direction this is going, now I’ve just got to incorporate some exercise.